lonely

lonely /ˈləʊnli/
adjective 
- sad because one has no one or company
- (of a place) unfrequented and remote


i don't know why i feel so lonely while everyone is right beside me. just that feel of emptiness. alone. have many friends yet non of them truly mine. i feel like want to talk to someone; done that yet still feel soooooo empty. i fucking hate this thought. slowly crept into my mind and stay there permanently occasionally came out like it is just a piece of thought. we called it "babi"(pig);dis word. let's just stop here. will be back soon.

a new start. (maybe)

courtesy of tumblr. my source of happiness.

assalam.

it's been quite a while since the last time i've posted on this blog. after abandoning it for about 3 years, (ithink?) i'm currently reconsidering about updating this blog regularly which i think not gonna happen. but anyways, i think i'll make this as a diary or journal where i could type and type till i'm numb. ok this is too much. *who cares. should i make another blog or just continue this blog? omaigod. this is harder than calculus. but there's another one hardest q's ever which is "NAK MAKAN APA?". fuck. that question is so fucking hard. and i don't know why. *sigh.

many may think "apehal minah ni tetibe nak update blog dia?" the thing is i feel like i need to express my thoughts throughout the day. what i've been through the whole day. i just feel like to do so. trying to make this as a solution on how to reduce my stress. there's may or may not be reading this but don't give a fuck. i need to let out my feelsssssss! honestly, my life was fucked up for the past few years. i don't promise anything such as "i'll be updating my blog twice a week or trice a week. or even possible every single day.". no. this is so not gonna happen. i'm busy with my college life. currently in my first year. and i'm struggling on keeping myself alive everyday. imagine how's my life. pretty much sucks. but the thing is i need to survive this. #aikenduit. 

that's all for now. *thinksoooo. night. i mean morning. its 0028hrs. i need to sleep.

chaw.

0028hrs.